So yesterday afternoon gave me at least one confidence boosting event: Stella peed in her potty right after she woke up from her nap. Then, that evening, she had an accident literally in the middle of Tim and I reminding her to let us know before she had to go pee. Then last night a little after she went to bed, she yelled for Tim and successfully used the potty. She had one accident in the night. Then this morning she woke up and used the potty, then she pooped in the potty for Tim. I thought, "finally, it is clicking just like the "Potty Training Queen" said!" Then she had an accident with Tim, then an accident with me, then another accident with me. I was distraught. Literally. I know it's ridiculous, but all three of us are exhausted. Last night after she had the 2am accident, she took about two hours to get back to sleep, so we did too. Then this morning she woke up chattering a couple of more times before getting up for good at 7am.
This morning after the second accident, when I had been right next to her, doing everything I was supposed to, watching for the signs, reminding, praising, etc, I just lost it (I made sure to get away from Stella first). We were going to fail. And I realize this is not that big of a deal, but it was because we've wasted 3 days only to fail. So Stella had another accident with me right next to her and it hit me: The reason she's failing is because she doesn't care about using the potty right now! Stella is not going to do something unless she wants to do it, it's just her personality and it's one of the things I love most about her personality, it's just annoying when it comes to potty training. So she's had some more accidents, and I've cried some more, and I'm sort of embarassed to admit that I feel like such a failure. But it's not my achievement, it's Stella's. We're going to go ahead and finish out today because that way I won't look back and go, "What if I'd just given it the whole 3 days? Maybe a miracle would have occured." Even though that means that I'll be stuck with her until bedtime because Tim's running a race tonight. But surely I can make it a few more hours. I've already been through so much!
So now I have to decide what next? Do I just go back to diapers and pack up the potty? Use pull ups? Keep the potty out but not mention it? I don't know, but I'm pretty sure that it's just not time for potty training. Even if this method worked for the other people I know who've tried it and for all the people who had the peppy testimonials on her website. And for all 6 of the Potty Queen's kids. Because I have followed it as closely as I possibly can. And when your kid has no problem peeing all over the floor two inches from you, I don't really think there's much you can do, sadly.
I guess tonight after she goes to bed I'll see what info I can find on other approaches to potty training. Maybe I can find a support group for "3 Day Potty Training Failures";)